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Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Following the River


By: Craig Sorensen

I’m a believer in cycles.  My life has had many, and I have found great benefit in embracing them.  But there is a distinction to make when considering cycles; they are not about a return to sameness, but a return to familiarity under new circumstances.

I left Idaho in 1980 to join the Army, and returned in 1992 after my dad passed away.  Being with my brother and my mother recaptured something familiar, but much was different.  I left Pennsylvania in 1989 and returned in 1995 to the same company I had worked for.  They had changed, I had changed, and we all benefited from this in the form of a 17 year relationship that finally ended because our desires and objectives had become different.

I left the first home I had lived in June 1965 and returned there for the first time in July 2012.  My memories of the place were surprisingly accurate, but my return taught me more about the truths and fallacies of memory than any million words can say.

Last month, here at ERWA, I gave a concise recap of the cycles that surround my love of storytelling.  I’m not particular about the kinds of stories I tell, I only want them to be good stories.  My entry into erotica in 2006 was fueled by a warm reception to my work that I had not found in other writing I had done.  And make no mistake, I have gone down dozens of rabbit holes, both as an author, and as a man, in the many explorations I have made in erotica.

I started this post with stating my belief in cycles.  But this does not assume fighting to go up the river that was just exited.  Quite the contrary, it is about finding the familiar in what is new, knowing that this new river may be very different, but finding the sameness and growing from this combination, and hopefully adapting.  Not traveling the same river yet again, but ultimately understanding the nature of rivers through experience.

And as much as I believe in cycles, I believe that life is a river.  Some choose to fight the waves, some choose to flow, some choose to get the fuck out and sit on the bank.  I choose to flow, and see what is around the next bend.  Springs enter creeks, creeks enter streams, streams enter rivers, rivers enter wider rivers, and eventually you find the vastness of the sea.

I seek the sea.

One year ago to the day, I posted my first entry on this blog.  That same day, I boarded a plane to travel across the US, and landed in a new destination, at a job very different than any I had known.  Six months later, in mid 2012, I drove with my family across the US, including that visit to the first home I had ever known.

And through it all, my belief in cycles and rivers has grown.  Through it all, a long cycle has been realized, as I resumed writing a series of stories that have emerged slowly from my imagination since I was a boy growing up in Idaho.  In the meanwhile, I’m working as hard as I ever have at my day job.  Somehow, thirty-two years of business experience have come to focus like the sun through a magnifying glass.  A spectrum of business experience burns white hot, and I’m taking on challenges I never thought I’d be doing.

I’m seeing life in ways I never saw before.

And so I have been forced to choose whether I want to flow down the river, or return back up with many things.  There is always the temptation to return back up the river, because though it might be tough to fight against the rapids, there were many good things up that river.

Along this large, new river, there are the sparks of familiarity.  But this river is flowing fast, so I have to choose where to focus my energy to learn and keep up with the nuances of the currents.

And I have made that choice.

As much as I have loved writing erotica, and as much as I love those of you who I have met and gotten to know along the way, writing erotica is something that is up the current from where I am.  Down current is the revitalization of a story that I have developed and grown too many times to count.  The story, for now, is my most important work.    

And along the way, a job that makes my days go so fucking fast that sometimes I can’t keep up.  A couple of years ago, I wouldn’t have been able to stand a situation like this, but something in me was triggered, and now I’m lapping it up like a thirsty young boy, drinking crystal water from a spring cascading down a rock.

And yes, that last description is a description from my life.  A memorable moment about the value of thirst, quenching, and the quality of water.  A lesson about how water is cleansed as it flows.

Anyway, today it is one year since the day I first blogged here, and one year since I went to take a new job out west, where I grew up as a child.

Today is the end of a perfect cycle, and the perfect end to bid a fond adieu to erotica.  It is the perfect day to thank each and every one of you who read my stories along the way, or were kind enough to follow my disjointed blog, which I will close down at the end of January.  It is a perfect day to tell those of you I have met face to face, or exchanged emails with, how much I appreciate what I have gained from you.  I only hope I have somehow reciprocated.

Am I completely done with erotica?  If you think so, I ask you to reread this post.

But for now, I take in where the river runs.  And I obey the power of the river.

I thank Lisabet Sarai for the opportunity to post to this ERWA blog.  I thank all of my fellow bloggers, truly a who’s who of erotica authors and a group I am honored to have been a part of.

Craig J. Sorensen
January 15, 2013

10 comments:

  1. I'd read about this on your blog, Craig, but I found this post a poignant and eloquent "adieu," as you put it; thank you for sharing it. From my perspective, it's hard to imagine this genre without you, and I'll miss you. It has been my pleasure and honor to become acquainted with you both online and in person over the years, and I have found your writing some of the most powerful and moving I've encountered in this genre of which I'm so glad you've been a part. (Speaking of, I loved the latest I read from you, "The Grunt and the Ditty Bop.")

    All the very best to you, always. :)

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  2. Craig - Thank you for the interesting posts over the past year. I think you're right, we need to cycle. Otherwise, it's just a rut. Good luck on new and old endevors!

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  3. Thank you, Craig, for your many inspiring, moving and just plain fucking awesome stories. I know your journey will take you to many wonderful places--and I'm sure you'll revisit the erotic along the way.

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  4. Hello, Craig,

    First of all, thank you for your wonderful contributions to this blog. Your very personal insights have made all of reading richer.

    Second, having read quite a few of your wonderful stories, I suspect that you will continue to incorporate relationships and sex into your writing, even if you don't call it "erotica". In fact, I've come to believe that carving out a separate genre for what we write, and giving it that label, may be counter-productive.

    In any case - we're honored to have had you here. I wish you good fortune in the next phases of your life's travels.

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  5. Craig,

    I just wanted to say thank you for all the eloquent and entertaining posts you've put on here.

    It's been a pleasure to read your material and I trust you know I'm sending the best wishes for your future from my corner of the UK.

    Ash

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  6. Em,

    Your thoughts made me a little misty eyed. Thank you so much for your support and friendship during this journey.

    And I'm so glad you enjoyed "The Grunt and the Ditty Bop!"

    Craig

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  7. Thank you Kathleen. May all your cycles be be enlightening!

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  8. Hi Donna,

    Yes, you're right, erotica is part of me. It was before I got in the genre, and so it will remain.

    Thank you for your encouragement, support, and for being a good friend.

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  9. Thanks again for inviting me to join in here. I have gained so much from being part of this.

    And you are absolutely right, the book I am working on now, while not erotica (or at least not in the commonly accepted definition,) relationships and passion and sensuality to play a significant role in the story's development.

    Craig

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  10. Hi Ash,

    I know you can appreciate the complexities of balancing one's writing with the rest of life.

    I wish you all the best on your continued journey.

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