Saturday, December 28, 2013
It's fast approaching 2014, and I haven't been able to write for over a month. This blog post doesn't count. :)
I've never had writer's block before. Normally, when I can't write it's mainly because I hadn't thought through a plot point or characterization. Once I solve those problems, the desire and ability to write quickly return. This time it's much different.
My sales have ground to a halt, and they've been stagnant for a couple of months. Two new stories I wrote haven't sold well at all. One's a stand-alone short story so that may explain why since I understand readers would rather spend the money on a novella or a novel, but it still hurts because I worked very hard on it. The other is in a collection that hasn't sold as well as I had hoped. A blog tour I set up did not result in many sales, so I did a lot of work for little return. I also have four stories of various lengths to finish for a publisher and my lack of confidence in my own talent and my ability to sell the damned things is killing my desire to write. It's hard to write when you don't think anyone will buy your books or when you don't like the lack of marketing from some of your small publishers. What little I have written lately is so bland I want to delete it and start over again.
I may be burned out.
I must do something about this problem or it will follow me into 2014. Driving forth and attempting to write despite my lack of desire hasn't worked, so since it's Christmastime I simply stopped dead in my tracks. Writer's block was ruining my enjoyment of the holiday season, and I wasn't about to let that continue since the season is so short. I did the only thing I could do.
I stopped writing completely. Stopped marketing. All I wanted to do was bake cookies, watch movies, listen to Christmas music, read, and spend time with my husband who's on vacation right now.
It's working. The stress is way down and I don't feel so frantic anymore. I still have no desire to write, though, but that's okay. It happens. I know once 2014 kicks in I'll be able to get back into the swing of things. Instead of fretting over my inability to write, I'm taking a much-needed vacation. I'm also setting goals for 2014, some of which are as follows:
1. Finish edits for a mystery/family saga novel and find an agent for it.
2. Finish those four erotica stories and submit them to the publisher as quickly as possible.
3. Submit my lesbian erotic short story to the best calls I can find and hopefully get an acceptance.
4. Aim for a short story acceptance by a pro erotica market.
5. Marketing - no more Yahoo loop chats. They don't work for me. Stick with radio shows, blogging, and monthly live chats. Facebook and Twitter seem to work fine, so I'll stick with them.
6. Finish two erotic novellas by the end of the new year. They are more than half finished now so the effort won't be overwhelming.
That's more than enough for 2014. In the meantime, I will not worry about writer's block. I'll enjoy the holidays. I have a feeling I'll be back on track in January. Here's hoping 2014 is a good year. Happy holidays, everyone, and see you in 2014.